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Living in Flow
As I‘ve been working the past several weeks to open and live through my heart chakra, rather than my ego, I’ve noticed a beautiful blossoming of love for myself and for every other person and creature and plant. My heart has opened to the idea of fairies, thanks in part to encountering angels, and other benficial energetic beings that I was closed to before. My love for my family has overwhelmed any of the bad feelings normally caused when I think of them and instead my love and desire for their happiness and joy has let me finally feel at peace about my relationships with them. I can finally accept that they won’t change because I’ve accepted that I will always love them anyway.
I have also become amazingly aware of the god/goddess in everyone, which has also been a help in approaching people with love instead of judgement. It’s amazing how free and easy I feel. It’s as if I was trying to make myself responsible for other people before instead of just spending my energy on myself. Now that I’m focused on simply being me, walking my path, and performing my part in the experience of life as I know only I can, everything is coming to me with ease and joy. I’m no longer putting excruciating effort into the simplest things. I can finally let go and let it be and be joyful in experiencing just being.
It has been a beautiful gift that has increased my gratitude towards other light and energy beings and my fellow travelers in this world. I have felt so in the flow instead of fighting against the current and it’s amazing how far you can go when you simply relax and let it take you!
Thank you to all of you who have shared your experiences with me and let them help me finally have the courage to be myself and live in love. I am deeply grateful for your investment in my life.
1 comment October 9, 2008
My Runes
When I was in Colorado reading Leaves of Yggdrissal, I asked the runes/my higher self to shoe me the runes that related to my life’s purpose & expression to jump out and grab me. This was partially inspired by my recent stint of crystal collecting as I’ve noticed that the stones I collect all are associated with a few interwoven concerns, such as peace/calm, unity in society and within myself, etc. I was sure that there would be a few runes that would be representative of myself and life in the same kind of way.
Here is what I came away with (the associated meanings are partially derived from Leaves of Yggdrissal and partly my personal notes):
Uruz – the insistence of life to continue against insurmountable odds, patience, courage, endurance, timely aggression, creative force, resourcefulness, persistence, will to live, primal impulse to be/become, growth through conflict/change, overcoming obstacles, healing, rejuvenation, physical & mental strength, new opportunities, risk-taking [I talked about this a little the other day as well]
Ansuz – communication, consciousness, intelligence, reason, air, sound, poetry, speech, ancestors, prana, breath of life, unbinding
Raido – control, movement, ritual, personal will & rights balanced with tribal/community rights, earned power & authority, judgement, taking charge of one’s self, acting from personal will/master of one’s circumstances, conscience, courage to act, extending one’s degree of control, taking initiative, cycles of seasons, shamanic travel into realms of consciousness
Kenaz – knowledge, consciousness, intellect, to know/be familiar with, craft, torch of knowledge, kin/like-minded people, spiritual leadership, esoteric knowledge, sex magic, cunt, consciousness of self, inborn knowledge, self-trust, light on the inner path, enthusiasm, inspiration, uncovering secrets, ridding unwanted influences/attracting desired ones, keeping knowledge maintained in altered states, bringing forth from the mind or body
Sowulo – life-giving femininity, sun, nuturing, comforting, higher self, higher will & intent, individual evolution, inner self, spiritual guidance, leadership, lightning, The Tower aka sudden, dramatic change, and consciousness
Teiwaz – battle for justice, law & order, social values, contracts & oaths, valor, bravery, honor, power to tackle a difficult situation, spirit warrior, masculine fertility, sky father, Yggdrasil
Berkana – earth goddess, female fertility, gestation, birth, child care, female health, healing, sacred trees, altered states of consciousness, soul journeys, ’shrooms, rebirth, growth, creativity, childbirth, motherhood, protection for vulnerable females (when in a triple rune charm). [I've talked about this one before, as well.]
The more you know me, the more all of these make sense together. I’m not sure how they come off otherwise.
1 comment June 23, 2008
I-Ching Reading
Your Question: How can I create my community?
Your Present Hexagram
Great receptivity attracts exceptional results. A natural responsiveness brings about success through support and perseverance, rather than through bold action. Thus, the wise person demonstrates strength like a powerful but gentle mare. This hexagram, consisting of all yin lines, represents a power of the feminine principle no longer honored in our modern world, but such receptivity is most auspicious.
The receptive force is sensual as well as powerful, and it can be missed by too much talk and planning. When spring comes, does the grass “plan” to grow? This is a time to concentrate on realities rather than potentials – with how to respond to a situation rather than how to direct it. The mature mare lets herself be guided by a higher power, and is skilled at graceful acceptance. In a strong spiritual way, her quiet contribution is most effective, and brings success.
Do not be too assertive at this time, for if you try to direct things, you are liable to become confused or alienated. Take your time. Draw strength from carefulness and you will be doubly fortunate. Focus more on feeling than on action. Be broad and deep in your attitudes so that you can accept everything that comes your way with grace and equanimity. Be receptive and spacious like the ocean; let the river of changing developments flow to you. Allow others to take the lead for now. Strive for a pure natural responsiveness that is based on inner strength rather than outer show.
© Tarot.com 2008
Add comment February 6, 2008
Awakening the Dreamer Symposium coming to Kansas City
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YOU’RE INVITED by June Holte to Awakening the Dreamer, Changing the Dream Symposium DECEMBER 29, 10-5
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Add comment December 19, 2007
The Solstice Portal of 12/12
I realize this is a bit belated, but I didn’t want to break up my excerpt sequence last week. Anyway, I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I had to endorse Karen Bishop’s What’s Up on Planet Earth update again because I am finding it to be so comforting. This last update in particular, because it seems to be addressed directly to me. So much of what she is saying directly applies! Here is a segment from her latest update (I’ve bolded the parts I strongly relate to):
2007 was a rocky and challenging year for many…especially the latter six month period after the solstice. And now, another solstice is due to arrive, marking the final point of this deep transitional and preparatory period.
This deep period of excavation that lasted for so many months was vitally necessary to our spiritual evolutionary process, as it prepared us for the next level of spiritual hierarchy. And the best is yet to come…we have been preparing for it! Higher vibrating key concepts and ways of being were integrated within us, notably: learning and experiencing how to stay still and in our center and how to harmonize with the energy of community.
When we first arrive in a higher dimension or higher vibrating energy, it feels glorious at first, as all our needs seem to be met and we seem to be able to create much of anything instantly. As time progresses, we find ourselves aligning with these newer higher realms, and this always involves a clearing and purging of any energies or patterns within and without which no longer match our new surrounding vibration. So we first feel great and then we feel not so great.
And as complicated as it may seem, our outside vibration does not dictate our inside vibration alone. How we vibrate on the inside, also dictates what occurs in our outside reality. So then, creation and evolution is always a two edged process. It comes from the outside and it comes from the inside, culminating in an alignment and burst of creation and change, similar to the big bang theory.
This process can create some confusion, chaos, and what may seem at times, an unending roller coaster ride. We adjust our vibration within, through clearing and letting go of lower vibrating energies (which is initiated by the newly arriving outside energies!), and then the outside reality feels downright unpleasant to be in, at times causing depression and anxiety, and always, that no sense of place feeling. This is because the outside physical manifestations no longer fit our new inside vibrations.
Add to this the waiting times, as we need to wait for a critical mass to catch up, in order to arrive at that culmination point for creating new in the physical, and this results in the wading through quicksand experience, the lethargy, and the lack of passion. All are typical ascension experiences.
And in addition, it seems that some of our beloved animal companions seem to choose to depart the earth plane as well during these deep transitional times, as they have chosen not to continue on to the next plateau.
So then, how does all this relate to where we are now? We are most certainly moving up the rungs of the ascension ladder, piece by piece, and experience by experience. Currently, we have reached a new level, and this involves the level of living in unity and within community. This new level, as with all levels, also connects us more fully with Source, or our souls, and this then, has most recently created the adjustments involving being still and staying in our center.
Having a physical ailment or injury forces us to stay down, and thus creates a situation where we must get out of the way, allowing Source to enter more fully. Do you remember in months past when some of us re-visited an old injury or physical malady that lasted several weeks? This was why. If the right side of your body is continually aching, stiff, or uncomfortable, or even if you experience injuries on your right side only, your soul is making an attempt at re-aligning you with Source. [Note: This knowledge in general is very encouraging to me... my right leg is shorter than my left which causes all sorts of weird pain to it, but only sometimes. It makes me feel like I can reclaim this 'gimpiness' as a power source (kinda) now.] Making things happen by ourselves is not the way in the higher realms. It is Source who does it all (or our souls), and this can readily happen when the lower vibrating aspects of ourselves are out of the way. Injuries or discomfort on the right side of our bodies indicates an over-use of the old masculine.
We are needing to evolve from the old male identity on the planet, to the new identity embodying much more of the feminine. (None of this is new news to most of you, just a recap here to assist in explaining our current status.) And the feminine is needing an adjustment as well. We are learning the true and higher ways of giving, supporting, allowing, and receiving. All these adjustments within involve a way of staying still, in our center, not extending, not doing it all, and the like. When we are present and still, Source can then find us and we are then within a portal or an alignment with the higher realms. And this is where true creating occurs.
Living in communities? We have just gone through a massive clearing of arrogance. This created a need to really look at ourselves, what our patterns were which might have involved a disrespect for others, or any dominance, etc. and a special time to fully examine how we had been vibrating even though we may not have know that we needed to adjust a thing within ourselves. We may not have seen our patterns before, but now this light has illuminated much. It was grand opportunity indeed. And know as well, that some of our old patterns were necessary in order to survive on a planet that was vibrating in a much lower and denser way.
Living in community involves a special harmony. We each have a special gift and contribution to make, and we are now finding that even though we may indeed embody our gift right now, we need not be utilizing it 24/7. If we do, we are then over-using our gift, and being “on” 24/7 creates a separation from the whole. It was meant that we enjoy ourselves the remainder of the time…we make our contribution, we create according to who we are and what we are here to contribute, and then we enjoy ourselves with the remainder of the whole.
So then, for the past several months we have been preparing for what is due to arrive in January. I cannot emphasize this enough….January will bring in the new in a very solid and grounded way. Things will be oh so much better, and really take off for us. 2008 will be the year of new beginnings, and in order to utilize them and be ready for them, we had to be in alignment with them, and thus, this phase of deep preparation for the past several months.
Solstices involve going deep. The days and nights are not equal. This creates the excavating energy. Equinoxes involve moving forward, and reaping the rewards we have generated. Phil and I are finding most certainly now, through our work and observations at the ancient sites, along with our communications with the ancient ones, that the ancients were very aware of these fluctuations and timelines, and their inherent purposes. So even if these patterns were not evident through experiencing the energies alone, they would be known by observing the petroglyphs and occurrences at the ancient sites.
For the past several weeks, there has been massive darkness on the planet. Horror, creepiness, and a vulnerability could be felt (especially if you are a sensitive one). This is because much is being excavated and is up and out, right in our faces. This phase also creates a feeling of no sense of place, as we do not belong anywhere right now. We may feel displaced, not know where in the world to go now, and feeling grossly insecure. It may feel as if there is nowhere left to go. And who wants to land somewhere when most of everything feels dark and creepy? This temporary darkness can also cloud any judgments or clarity we may desire. It can be difficult to make decisions, when we are not sure what the darkness is indicating.
When the darkness occurs, though a massive purging like this one, it seems this is all we can see. We are thus looking through a filter that is not real.
Know that there is an end to this phase, and very soon. We will again find home. We will again see beauty. We will again feel good. We will again experience caring, love, and a feeling of home and unity. It is this that we have been preparing for. We needed to be in alignment with these higher vibrating things before we could embody and experience them, and they will be arriving for us in January.
January will be huge. It will be solid. It will be real. It will be like a massive bulldozer moving us forward…not excavating this time, but moving us into and supporting us in our new spaces and in our new endeavors.
The last few pieces are now being wrapped up. These involve the solstice of the 21st (some say the 22nd, but Phil and I are finding that it greatly depends upon where you reside on the planet anyway), and the portal of December 12, or 12/12.
12/12 will open us to opportunities. It will re-validate what we have been wanting to create. It will align us with higher intentions and with our soul’s direction. It will re-connect us. Do we need to intentionally do anything on this date? My stance has always been “no.” Things will just happen naturally. On the 12th, you may find that things seem to be falling into place all of the sudden. You may find that situations seem to be resolved. You may feel lighter. You may get clarity.
“Why do you tell of the 12/12 portal on the exact day and not before, so that we can prepare?” you might wonder in annoyance. It is because I don’t think it really matters. Things always occur very naturally…we need not force them or make them happen. And in addition, there is always a window of energy around every alignment. If we wish, we can write down what we wish to create for our futures on this day, or near this day. But our souls know what is in store for us. It is always there, hidden away, ready to be hatched, even though we may not always be consciously aware.
If we can place ourselves in a space of relaxation, joy, creativity, simplicity, and happiness, all things align very naturally. In this way, intentional ceremony is not necessary either. Just allowing is enough. When Phil and I stand at pivotal points in ancient ruins at solstice and equinox times, we can feel the alignments and the portal openings. They all occur very naturally. And the alignments know what our soul’s intentions are…they only serve to open them more fully.
In the last energy alert of December 2, I spoke of a high energy pyramid hidden beneath the earth in the area we just moved to. This pyramid will open when the surrounding energies begin to vibrate at a certain pitch, or when the inhabitants of this area begin to embody these higher energies. In this way, an activation occurs very naturally. We need not intentionally activate a thing. If we did, the very thing we were trying to activate would hold a higher vibration for a short while, and then most likely not be able to maintain it. Not really doing things intentionally is part of clearing the arrogance.
As we begin to vibrate higher, most things come from an intent of love and caring, or joy and passion, and that alone places us in alignment with the higher realms. It is always the emotion behind the creation that fuels it’s ultimate destination.
Again, staying still, not reaching or trying, not extending, but creating in our joy, loving and being in the moment, and just being who we are, are all that is necessary for aligning with the higher realms. If we can maintain this state as much as possible, while not taking things personally or being affected and reacting to outside energies, we can much more easily go through the doorway to another dimension.
So as we complete this very last phase of preparation and alignment within ourselves, we can rest assured that a very new reality is on the very near horizon.
1 comment December 18, 2007
Reclaiming Birth Power Collectively
The last in a series of posts from Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom: Creating Physical and Emotional Health and Healing by Christiane Northrup, M.D., Chapter 12: ‘Pregnancy and Birthing.’
Reclaiming Birth Power Collectively
“Imagine what might happen if the majority of women emerged from their labor beds with a renewed sense of the strength and power of their bodies, and of their capacity for ecstasy through giving birth. When enough women realize that birth is a time of great opportunity to get in touch with their true power, and when they are willing to assume responsibility for this, we will reclaim the power of birth and help move technology where it belongs – in the service of birthing women, not as their master.
“For many women, having a baby is their first experience of being connected with other women and with their vast creativity. It has the potential to transform the ways in which we think about ourselves. As one patient said to me, ‘I felt at one with every woman who ever gave birth. I felt powerful and in touch with something within me that I never knew was there. I took my place among the lineage of women as mothers.’”
Related posts:
Turning Labor into Personal Power
Birth and Female Sexuality
Rebecca’s Story: Reclaiming Birth Power
Amanda’s Story: A Home Birth
6 comments December 14, 2007
Censorship
Starhawk’s suggestions for moving past one’s internal Censor and thereby liberating aspects of oneself include:
- thinking about different periods of your life and what you felt you could or could not say in them
- thinking through what you would have said if you felt unrestricted
- deciding what you still need to say
- say it
And I thought really hard about what I would say, but I feel my lifestyle choices speak more strongly than anything I might just say. But then, I think am I just making excuses so I don’t have to feel vulnerable about more of my f*ed up life in front onf internet strangers? And the answer is probably yes, but that’s okay. I’ve been talk-storying to myself about my life and I think that’s successfully helping me to reclaim my past experiences whereas before I mostly either didn’t think about them or else I’d forgotten them completely thanks to long ago programmed my memory to hide as many unpleasant experiences as possible. (That was a long sentence.)
1 comment December 3, 2007
Enneagram: The spiritual ‘personality’ test
A friend recently examined my character through the Enneagram: a system of sacred psychology that affords insight into the workings of human consciousness. One of the world’s oldest ways for understanding how people relate to each other, the Enneagram identifies central motivations of a person. Additionally, the Enneagram suggestions methods of turning psychological vice into spiritual virtues. I’d encourage anyone to take and Enneagram test. It can be quite revealing.
My Enneagram revealed that I am a type 8: the leader, protector, provider, entrepreneur, maverick and rock.
Basic fear: Of being harmed or controlled by others, of violation
Basic desire: To protect themselves, to determine their own course in life
Superego message: You are good or okay if you are strong and in control of your situation. [I'd personally like to replace 'your situation' with 'your self']
General: Needs to be in control; very protective of self and friends; combative, openly displays anger; self-confident; authoritarian
Focus of Attention: Power and justice; protection and control
Core belief: Life is hard, only the strong survive. [I'd rather say, life is hard, only the aware thrive, but whatever.. this is supposed to be stuff that was formed when I was 3 so I should stop arguing with it when it doesn't reflect my current feelings]
Primary avoidance: Vulnerability, weakness
Best: Self-confident, authoritative, loyal, protective
Worst: Domineering, insensitive, aggressive, controlling
Childhood: Exposed to adversity at a very young age; learned to be aggressive & combative to survive; learned to hide vulnerability and weakness
Suggestions for growth: Learn constructive ways to deal with anger and aggression (which, thankfully, I have done at this point because it used to control my life in a really bad way)
Realize that others may be intimidated by what seems ordinary to you
Nurture yourself
Be willing to explore being vulnerable
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Add comment November 22, 2007
‘It was our job to transmute the energies through ourselves’
A wonderful resource from Karen Bishop is called “What’s Up On Planet Earth.” Karen discusses world-wide energy vibrations and examines the impact that is having on individual lives. I subscribed to this service a few weeks ago and have found her insights to be extremely helpful as well as deeply encouraging.
Here’s an excerpt from her latest update, which I found particularly relevant to my current life situation:
“When we reach the higher realms we truly do have to step up to the plate. Living in community means that even if we do indeed know what our special gift and contribution is, we have to do it well. We have to be it, express it, and take responsibility for it in all ways. We need to take our contributions seriously, because if we do not, we then jeopardize the whole.
“With this latest shift upward and into yet another higher vibrating space, we again begin at the bottom rung. We start over, in essence, as we have gone as far as we could where we were before, in any given spiritual hierarchy. When we graduate to a higher vibrating community, everyone is on equal turf, so to speak. There are no leaders. Each individual has a vital and important contribution to make, and each individual must then, express their gifts with the highest responsibility and commitment required. It is a far more serious situation than I would have imagined, but rightfully so. So in this regard, we will be called on the carpet and held to task, humbled, and put in our places so that we can more easily and rightfully serve and contribute where we need to. All part of the squeezing effect. Squeezing out the peripheral energies and tendrils which no longer have a place.
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“Many are being handed their perfect “job,” or responsibility. The arena that we have dreamed about, just for us, is now available to many. In this regard, we have to again be ready to step up to the plate. Are you ready to take your designated responsibility seriously? Are enough of your lower vibrating “issues” or mis-perceptions cleared away so that you can operate in the most pure form, therefore benefiting those around you the most? Have you finally reached that space where you do not take things personally?
“For those who are ready to go to their next level, there will still be opportunities that will arise for adjustments and “humblings” to occur, and even opportunities to “go back” until another opportunity arrives when each individual is more poised to match their chosen arena or space of contribution to the planet and the whole.
“What does all this mean? For many, the waiting is over. It is time for the torch to be handed over to the creators of the New Planet Earth. Many will thus be given a palette, just waiting for each creator’s own individual blueprint to manifest upon it. It is then that our individual dreams and visions of how things could be, can now be brought into form.
“But these new creations are not easily created in the old world, as it is most assuredly crashing and deteriorating at a rapid rate. Part of our roles and responsibilities involved transmuting darkness or lower and denser vibrating energy. This is why so many of us were born into situations of abuse and suffering, with much darkness present. It was our job to transmute the energies through ourselves. And this, then, is one of our entrance tickets to the higher realms. If you are one who has diligently and consciously worked at transmuting your own darkness (which is the darkness of the whole that we readily agreed to embody), then your admission to the next hierarchy is easily granted. In essence, we have to “earn” our way to the higher realms. So then, creating our own new spaces away from the old will be our salvation.”
Read the rest of the article here.
Add comment November 20, 2007
‘I can use my Ability to Manipulate the System’
Continuing in my mini-series of Starhawk’s observations about our war-based society and how to challenge it, today’s blog summarizes effective modes of resistance:
“Unless we can grasp the reality in which we find ourselves, we cannot change it. … When we withdraw, our gifts, our perceptions, our energies are lost. The realities of domination go unchallenged.
“To resist is to engage reality, to act. Awareness, emotion are not enough. Resistance is only real when it is expressed through action.
“In turn, the action we take nourishes and strengthens us, for acts of resistance against systems that destroy us are ultimately acts of survival, creation, and nurture.” (pg. 86)
“Resistance is hard. We find it relatively easy to commit a single act of resistance, but to sustain that resistance over days, weeks, over a hundred minor issues and constant confrontations, requires a diligence and stamina far beyond what most of us possess. Our admiration increases for those who hold to resistance against greater threats, extremes of pain, privation, and fear, for months and long years. For we find that resistance demands enormous energy. We cannot resist all the time, in every area of life. We must choose our battles and the priorities of struggle.
“But knowing that resistance is a possiblity makes all our choices real choices. They become part of our resistance, not opposed to it. We can say, ‘I will obey right now because this issue is not where I choose to make my stand.’ We can say, ‘I will rebel not by harming myself but by making trouble for the authorities.’ We can say, ‘I will withdraw now to conserve my strength but I will return tomorrow with eyes open.’ We can say, ‘I can use my ability to manipulate the system to prepare the ground of struggle.’ We can be conscious when we put on a mask that we are not wearing our true faces — and so retain the ability to take the mask off.” (pg. 89)
Read Part 1: Punishment and Value in our War-based Society
Read Part 2: Awareness is the beginning of all Resistance
2 comments November 14, 2007
