Archive for September, 2009
My friend Darcy and I went to an African Ancestor Root Healing Ritual last night with storyteller, dancer, healer and educator Masankho Banda. Since we were told to bring a blanket and pillow, I thought it would be some deep meditative experience. My expectations were happily upturned and we spent the time doing a series of dance rituals!
We started with a dance of self. Next we danced to welcome and acknowledge the ancestors. Then we danced a dance for each direction, which was amazingly powerful and the directions told me that since they are always present for me and always watching, I should consciously tap into them and their power more often. We danced a dance for welcoming one another that was also a dance to ask for those who need to see us clearly to do so. I cried through a good portion of that, praying for my parents to see me as I am instead of who they have told themselves I am.
Next we danced a dance for our children and all children. I danced thinking of Clarissa and was filled with such great joy as the dance acted out the way parents must help or not help their children and have the wisdom to know which to do when. Afterwards, we talked about the children of the world who are in need. We all blessed the necklace made by a girl with AIDS in Africa who has amazingly reached puberty and I was led to talk about how I was abused as a child and how my life is full of love and light like I would never believe back then, to reaffirm everyone’s hopes that the children of the world in need will find the help they want. While speaking, I suddenly had to gasp to breathe and I started shaking and crying. One of the other women came over to hug me, remind me to breathe and to ground me. We stayed in one another’s arms until I had calmed and the enormous rush of energy had passed through.
Next we did the dance of acceptance. We gathered everything in our past and let it go. Gathered all we are now and let it go, then pulled in future goodness towards us.
We next had a session of meditation laying down with the drum Masankho played for us creating a strong heartbeat for us to follow. My sacral chakra felt very strongly activated and was vibrating in tempo with the drumming. I still feel the transformation most strongly there. I woke up and noticed how light and airy it and my energy feel. I know I let go of somethings and felt some blocks in my mind and body had been cleared away.
We ended with a dance to thank the ancestors and allow them to go back to what they were doing.
The night ended with lots of hugs and thank yous and extremely positive energy. I am so glad I went!!! I can’t believe I almost didn’t. Masankho will be back in town in November so I look forward to seeing what other opportunities will arise.
We let my animal companion Frederick hang out on our porch unsupervised a bit lately since he’s so well behaved and will generally stay on or near the porch unlike the other 2 cats. Monday night I let him out and then forgot about it because I got really sleepy and was trying to just stay awake. Hours later, when it was raining and I remembered, I went out to look for him and couldn’t find him anywhere around our apartment.
Instead of freaking out, like I normally would, I chose to ask for help. I sat in front of my altar and got in touch with the Christ grid, asking it, without expectation, for aid. The image came to my mind of Frederick resting on the Christ grid while it pulled him like a river current directly to our front door. Over and over and over it played in my mind as my fiance was outside looking for Frederick. After he gave up and came back inside, Frederick scratched at the front door to be let in! It was an amazing lesson in letting go and letting the Universe take over.
Today on our walk to work, we stopped to pet Dakota, a beautiful husky whom we’ve befriended. He always runs up to greet us, “arroooo rooo”ing while we stop one, two, or three times in a trip to give him some affection. This morning, I bowed to his god-self and it really surprised him! He’s used to only being viewed as a dog! But he was happy with my acknowledgement and showed me an image of his god-self, which is much larger, standing up as high as my shoulder, with enormous powerful shoulders and a more menacing, fierce attitude than the sweet, beautiful and cuddly demenor he normally shows.
Lately with all the crazy energies flying around, I have been forced to deal with old hurts and fears I hadn’t fully acknowledged or released. I also had my priorities re-aligned and am feeling fully in touch with my soul’s purpose.
My friend Darcy who is working to become an energy practioner (click here for details on having her work with you) gave me an hour long session on Friday night. I had some major AHA! moments in between feeling sleepy and contented. She had an amazing OM chant going on in the background and I immediately felt relaxed and in a receptive state. I meditated on Gaia for a while as different feelings and thoughts emerged and left.
I finally started meditating on my future daughter, who has come to me in many visions and to whom I can communicate very easily on a soul level as we prepare for her entrance into Earth. She showed me that I was afraid of her abandoning me because I have had two miscarriages and that I was not trusting her and the Universe as I needed to, being ashamed to be honest with others about how real and alive she is to me. She told me that she has already agreed to be with me as my daughter and that I should trust in this. She showed me herself as a brilliant star, as a baby, a teen, and an old woman, before fading back into a baby. I felt her weight on my chest with her head on my shoulder and I wanted to cry from the joy and peace I felt. She even showed me a vision of me decorating her nursery for her to help me believe fully in her future entrance into my life (which will change everything for me!)
I also forgave myself and my mother for the mistakes we made in our relationship with each other, and had some more realizations about the spiritual aspect of my childhood imaginings and their effect on my life.
The next day, I had my regular meditation session with friends although only one was able to come. We had a very good session that was powerful for the both of us. I received some very strong images and good wisdom, though my head felt as if it had been peeled back to expose my brain to the world. The feeling led me to draw this:
Our meditation led us to merge fully with our Souls, to really SEE it. My hair and eyes and skin grew brighter and my entire body became more elfin in the mediation. This also helped me become more attuned to my soul name & titles: Fire Flower, Truth-Bringer, Lady of the Flame and Shadow, Goddess-Warrior of ALL-THAT-IS, which I feel now is a proper definition of myself instead of something I have to live up to. We connected with the Christ grid that is both surrounding and within the Earth, which activated my third chakra very strongly. It was exhausting and exhilarating.
Sunday I spent going through the rest of Brain Respiration by Ilchi Lee. Once again, I did a meditation where I looked at my brain and cleansed it in a stream of energy. This time it was pink where the new shiny bits have started healing the scummy rotten bits I had to cleanse a few weeks ago. And when I shook out the “dark energy” it was like a sprinkling of pepper instead of the stream of blackness that flowed from it last time.
One of the last exercises was to meditate in order to see your soul’s vision play out. I did this and saw myself dancing around the Earth planting roses and bearing fruit for others out of the tree growing out of my head (an image I’ll probably draw soon). I saw myself giving birth to Clarissa (my daughter) as if in a womb myself, painless and joyful. When Clarissa joined me on the Earth, still connected to me by the red embellical cord, she and I started dancing in a new pattern (one she taught me) and in this new pattern all the other people on the planet started dancing with us until we were all vibrating at such a rate that we were shimmering and on the same level as our star families who embraced us with open arms.
It was the perfect accumulation of all the work I’ve been doing: to see this vision and to know I can trust the Universe to bring it to pass without my having to force anything. I can simply allow and be my True Self and watch the future unroll beautifully.
I am so blessed.
This weekend is the Sun Valley Spiritual Film Festival in Idaho. The organizors asked me to spread the word about this event and it sounds like a good one!
From their email:
This year, Jim Walsh, CEO HESA Institute, CEO Intentional Chocolate brings us:“Cracking the Cosmic Egg” a short film and presentation to an exciting new frontier where science and spirituality combine to improve the human condition. September 20th, 2:00 PM.Link to the trailer for the Sun Valley Spiritual Film Festival:HESA’s mission is to combine the science of spirituality and the science of matter, East and West together, to benefit the areas of human energy, health care, nutrition and education in measurable ways. One of the highlights of the talk will be an audience sampling of one of first prototype products to come out of HESA’s technology-Intentional Chocolate!Jim Walsh brings to HESA his extensive knowledge of nutrition and science and his entrepreneurial skills to the unique challenge of unlocking the mysteries of the Human Energy System. Considered one of the world’s leading experts on food, he is widely published and quoted in newspapers, journals, TV and radio. Walsh also serves as Chairman of the Board of Hawaiian Vintage Chocolate since 1992 and Intentional Chocolate since 2007. He serves on the Advisory Boards of the Institute for Advanced Studies in Spirituality and Wellness At The Chicago Theological Seminary and the Center for Creating Healthy Minds at the University of Wisconsin. He is a member and co-founder of the Badger Angel Capital Network (BACN) assisting the Wisconsin Alumni Research Foundation and the University of Wisconsin in technology transfer and business start-ups. Walsh’s involvements are dedicated to the single objective of creating products that nourish both body and spirit to improve the quality of life for all beings.Visit the HESA Institute: www.hesainstitute.comSounds intriguing! If you make it there, leave me a comment and let me know how it was!Visit intentional chocolate: www.intentionalchocolate.com/
My amazing friend Darcy is giving free energy sessions as part of her energy practicioner certification course. If you live in the Kansas City area and want a free session, let her know! Her contact info, etc. is below:
I am currently undergoing an extensive certification program with Joey Klein and the Institute of Transformational Studies, and part of my certification process is to give 100 free energy sessions. All I ask in return is that you fill out a very brief survey of your experience (takes about 2 minutes to complete).
If you are interested in scheduling a free session, please contact me at darcybloss AT gmail.com or 816-809-9138 and feel free to pass this email along to anyone else you know who may be interested.
More information on the free sessions is below, and you can also visit the ITS website at http://www.instituteoftransformationalstudies.com/ for more information on their philosophies, seminars, workshops and presentations. Some of them are free.
I look forward to hearing from you.
So many things are changing in my mind. I’m letting go of fears I wasn’t even aware I had and the Universe is opening up a whole new world of connections for me. There’s so much I could talk about, but I’m feeling so scattered I’m not sure now is the best time to do so. Instead, I’ll share some of my recent creations:
The Horned Goddes ruless over changes. She sees deep within herself where the totality of the Universe unfurls. She smiles contentedly knowing all things are where they must be. She will lead you through the changes that bring you closer and closer to yourself.
Faerie Twilight. During a recent meditation, I saw this vision… of course, it was better in my head, but this is pretty close.
Flower chakras. The piece I’ve been wanting to draw forever finally came out. It’s not how I origionally imagined it, but I love it. This picture doesn’t really show the detail at the top, but otherwise it’s good.
You can see more of my art here.