Love Finds You Even When You’ve Given It Up
Say what you will,
Love finds you even when,
You’ve given it up
One after another
You’ve seen love affairs turn
From the glorious start
To the crash and burn
But Now that you’ve promised never again
It’s exactly when you’ll fall in
-The Submarines, “Submarine Symphonica”
I posted before about my lovelife and how I decided to give up on having a relationship with a woman. In my heart I knew it wouldn’t be forever, but I knew it was a decision I had to make so I wouldn’t be throwing away my energy after looking for someone when I shouldn’t be.
I’m happy to announce that the Universe indeed had plans for me where that is concerned. I recently went to visit the only woman I ever felt truly intimate and comfortable with. She lives several states away and we hadn’t seen each other for 3 years.
Coming together with her again was incredible. We connected even more deeply that we had before and it was so comforting to me to be around another woman and feel as deeply relaxed as I want to, but normally don’t. Our intimacy and obvious mutual adoration is also fuel for my fire and it made a significant difference in my energy and power level.
Since then, we’ve been talking daily on the phone, sometimes two or three times. It overjoys me to have a female precense in my life that I can be that involved with without them finding it stifling. I have always wanted to be intimate with a woman who was willing to be involved in all aspects of my life, finding even the boring things interesting because of how they affect me, listening to stuff I wouldn’t feel comfortable telling anyone else.
The natural progression of our feelings and desires have led us to being each other’s girlfriends, with the overwhelming and enthusiastic support of both of our signficant others. It is an amazing connection that I thought I had lost and to have it suddenly back as a force for wonder and love in my life is almost overwhelming. I am so grateful to have this beautiful woman in my life, even from far away.